On New Year’s Eve I had two thoughts. The first, “Kill yourself… You have nothing to lose...” But a second one followed and said, “Before you kill yourself, why not go to church?”
The service was already in progress when I arrived. I sat in the back because I didn't want to be noticed. Everyone was so happy, they were hugging and wishing each other a Happy New Year. But my heart was heavy with sadness and my only thought was to end my life.
The Pastor's wife came over to me a...nd wanted to know what was wrong. I denied that I was troubled but she saw right through me. She insisted that I stay with them. I made every excuse, but she would not take no for an answer. Out of respect I agreed. I didn’t know what to expect but for the next two and a half days, I was treated with such kindness. She and her husband fed, listened to and prayed for me. Through their love, Jesus met me in such a powerful way. I felt His presence and I heard Him ask, “Why do you want to kill yourself? I died for you.” Now I understand that Jesus went to the cross so that I could have an abundant life. From that point on, I made the decision to live for Jesus. And I’ve never been the same.

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